I dunno

I'm thinking of turning this "blog" into a journal. I have become disenchanted with the world, and so I am trying not to participate in the social media part of it much. I am surprised at how much social media has become a part of my life. If you had asked me a mere five years ago if this would happen, I would have laughed. But now, it's the first thing I do in the morning and almost the last thing I do at night. Frankly, it's not good for me. I think it has taught me to live my life "online" rather than in real life. I've always been one of those people with an internal dialog. Now, much of that dialog is geared toward how I will present it online. Even photographs are taken with the thought that they will posted and commented on by me and by others. I've always craved praise and recognition. I didn't receive much as a child, and I think that has set me up to seek it as an adult. No one gets much recognition, unless they happen to be famous. This means that I just need to get over it--but I struggle. Anyway, maybe I'll be back, and maybe I won't.